I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 1:05 AM.
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Tuesday, August 5, 2008 at 1:05 AM
Every story always starts with " Once upon a time" and ends with "they all live happily ever after" well my "so -called" fairytale starts with " Once upon a nightmare" and ends on a "and she live in darkness the rest of her life". My friend once told me that every memory was worth remembering and not forgetting... well maybe not all but why would one want to remember the dark times he or she went true it just does not make sense... Words could change it all... Even a simple "sorry" can change it or " I hate you!" yes if only these words were said... I never know that these words could affect someone very badly until I had experience it myself... Is the world like this? Its hopeless... if only I was never taken back... I would have a new home a new family who likes me for who I am, but there still a chance that i might be treated the same as now but at least there is still a chance that I might lead a new life... I decided that I would go abroad to study after my JC or Poly... maybe there I could start out fresh... no need to harbor all those memories as there wont be things that would often bring back those memories... always alone and such... planning to go to those very peaceful places... maybe can even plant the flowers i always love and wished... yeah a flower garden where I can sit there and think all day and night... wouldn't that be nice... I also wanna say sorry to this guy... yeah for using him as a substitute... I know I should not have done that but what could I do.... I was finally being cared.... thats why I was very happy... but when I realised I was going to hurt him a lot I knew that I had crossed the line between us. I don't know how to tell him for fear that its really going to hurt him... I just really wanna tell him I sorry... I not going to write any longer for fear that people fall asleep... Any way my sincere apology to that guy...
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 1:05 AM.
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