Sanders.
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 7:11 AM.
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Friday, July 31, 2009 at 7:11 AM
Happy Birthday to Matthew Charles Sanders.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 7:11 AM.
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009 at 7:04 AM
Maybe to you both, it might not be the most important thing. Or maybe the thing you both would never care at all. I don't know. And I don't know what to say anymore. I've been deceiving myself for all these time, just to be happy. Time after time, the both of you kept on pushing my limits. Limits after maximum limits. Why? I should not care right? I mean, the words I say about not caring anymore still comes to me. Why? I gave up already. But why does this things bother me? They do. A lot. Time again and again, different things. Like cutting the same wound over and over again. I hate you both. I do. I really do. But why. Why do I still bother to care. I could have easily just went off like that. Why. Tell me. You both can't do anything at all can you? Deep ain't it? The both of you kept so much things from me. I don't like it. I don't. Why. Why must you both do these all over again and again. It's been like this. It shouldn't bother me, right? But it does. Should I, Start all over again, new name, new life, new beginning, new country, new home, new family. If so, it's gonna be hard. But I will get througt it again. I've always had.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 7:04 AM.
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Friday, July 17, 2009 at 4:58 AM
Heyo's! Sorry for being away with no proper post. I've been fine lately. Just... Well... My health and a whole lot... Was sent home from school. Rested a lot lately. Kim said I must. She's not the only one... Haha! And the wheather is really bad. And my asthma attack is getting worse. Waited from my parents to get me for 2 hours. Kim and I are working on something... Everything is alright I guess... Yeah... More or less.My hands look like broom sticks... I think I'm losing weight. Erm... Hm... I'm like 42kg now. Though I've been sleeping ALOT. Happy Birthday Jordan. We dumped flour on him today. HAHAH. Like a lot, he look like a walking snow man. Especially when the wind blew. It looked like it was snowing. Jessie wanted me to go so I went. Last year I celebrated his birthday with some others too. Haha... ... ... ... ... ... ... Thats all... Yeah... Kim commented this is fake happiness... IT IS NOT, I think... I still think and know it's my fault. I'm the cause. I'm the villian.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 4:58 AM.
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Monday, July 13, 2009 at 3:29 AM
Will Be Right Back. -No worries. I'm perfectly safe. Just Missing In Action. Rain.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 3:29 AM.
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Tuesday, July 7, 2009 at 6:58 AM
Happy Birthday To Mikey, Love. Happy Birthday To Nathan. Happy Birthday To Jocelin. Happy Birthday To Royston. Happy Birthday To Brian. (A7X) Happy 3rd Month Kea. "I wanted I wanted you to stay ‘Cause I needed I need to hear you say That I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing ‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and Never let me go." By NckelBack. "Far Away" Your crying leads me to being speechless, as my response would be the same, out of reflex. Telling you it's alright, somehow, I'm doubting that things will be alright. Becasuse I'm not sure anymore. Stop crying, think happy. Never will we leave you alone, as we pray for you to be safe. Look at the brighter side of things. Stop there. too fast. Slow down. We need to catch up. As we take time to embrace you. Don't forget you're never alone. Never. And we love you Kim. Follow the notes at ones journey, The first sight will marks ones destiny, When ones voyage reach to an end, Return lies within hasty keys.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 6:58 AM.
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Sunday, July 5, 2009 at 4:13 AM
You know, I wonder how many people know the inside story to this? The reason I chose to not tell the inside story was because I was trying to not hurt her, plus I respect her decision of not telling others. I only came by it, I don't know wether it was meant for me to know. But anyway. I rather get hurt then her. Though it might be time for the rest to know, I don't know... I don't know anything, I don't. And please. If you don't mean it. Don't ask about my life anymore. Or my family. Becasue I'm not going to answer these questions anymore. I've started to lose hope in the word family. I really am... It's gonna be fine Kimmie. Don't worry. We'll be there for you, you know that. Like the story in the bible. King Simon was it? And the baby and 2 mothers, the one who gave up. Yeah. It's so like you, unselfish. It's gonna be alright, it will. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you too... Bobbi Love, welcome back. It's great to have you back, and I'm sorry that I can't come on often so I'm writing letters to you. And well. I'll talk to you soon, by writing letters. Thank you for all the support you have given me. All the assurance before, Thank you. And welcome back Mitsukake Sempai too. Violet, it's not true. He's right. So it's fine. But thanks for trying to knock your senses in to me, and for the very long message to try to let me see your point of view... And for spending lots of times with me even though when I'm so upset. You sat there and talk to me, when I'm about to cry you just tell me that everything is gonna be fine. Danna, thank you for also trying to knock some sense into me and for your kind words. Sorry if I have been much of a trouble lately, for having you to worry about me, sighing through the words you kept repeating to me, having lesser pressure from you made me have lots of time to think, sort things out. But I think I'm ready for the usual strictness from you once again. For you to scream at me for a small grammar mistake, Thank you for being there and being my only support pillar just recently only one setback caused me crashing having to lean on you more. I'm sorry. Thanks for being a great guardian. Tiffany, it's been a long time since I last talked to you. I'm sorry for not coming on as often. I miss you, looking back at all the times we used to share, I miss you. Come back, your friends are all here. We are all here. Be safe. I have not been much of a best friend now have I? Sorry. Please take care of Joyce too... She's as important as you to us and to a special someone. Ryan, Thank you being a best friend. Checking up on me these past few days. Telling me stuff. Thank you for taking up your time. Having to know things and being there, cursing and swearing through some of your messages about stuff. Assuring me that it's gonna be fine and that I should clear up with him soon. Thank you for your kind words too. Thank you for being a great friend. Deborah, thank you for also trying to knock senses in to me. For you to call me up and explain again and again about stuff. Checking up on me and also messaging me when you are bored. Thank you for being a great friend and also being very mature among us. And for making fun of me when ever I see you with "Do I know you?" or "Who are you?" Haha. I thought you would understand what I was trying to do. I thought you knew. I don't know if you know the inside story or not. I'm not taking chances, but if you think I've changed... What else can I say. Because I can't and I don't know how to phrase it at all. I'm sorry if I was hiding things from you. I know, I promised to tell you stuff when you come back. But I'm sorry, I did'nt want to pressurize you, because you needed time for your problems too. I don't want to take up your time, you needed some time alone too. I'm sorry I could not be of help much. Sorry for being stupid and ignorant. Sorry if I gave you an impression I've changed. I needed some time myself to adjust to how to phrase my feelings. I'll tell you soon... Sorry big brother. If you think I've change. Then I try to change back to the little sister that you love, the little sister I've always been and will be.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 4:13 AM.
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Friday, July 3, 2009 at 7:11 AM
You know, I don't get it. I really don't. It's been a day since I found out you left. How have you been? You know, love. That you matter to all of us. I'm sorry I can't come often. That I don't even have time to read people's blogs or even yours. I just take a glance through it all. And I'm the last person to find out you are gone somewhere far. I hate it. I hate not knowing what's wrong earlier. I could have talk to you if I could use the computer. I hate it not hearing from you. It's been a day and I've been thinking and praying for you to be fine. I've been busy. I'm sorry. With lots of stuff, projects and things. I don't know. Really. I have lots of home work to catch up, and if it were not for the same people in school who's helping me, I don't think I'll make it through. With assistance from Kim and others. Even the recent present. I had no time to get. Only manage it last minute thanks to Kim and Danna. Where are you now? Are you fine? Why did you leave? If it was me that's the one, I should be the one leaving. Not you. I can't even seem to contact you. How useless can I get. I can't go online. My parents don't allow me to. I only have 10 minutes. Why don't you just tell me that it's my fault. Because no one says that it is. I need to hear from you. I do. Need to. Why did you choose to leave. It's my fault. Come back soon. I need you. I really do. Love you Tiffany. Please if you do read this... Be safe. And I pray that Joyce is well and safe too... My ten minutes is up. I miss you both. And I wish I could talk to you both.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 7:11 AM.
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Thursday, July 2, 2009 at 4:25 AM
Happy Birthday Kea. Finally 17. Happy birthday. Your present is with me. I'll pass it to you. I love you. Je T'aime. You were the first few, who wished me happy birthday, on one of the day's I dread the most. The one who made last year's birthday The best. The one who was always there, the one who was patient with me. The one who never gave up on me, when I gave up on my life. I saw pass you, one big mistake. But I'm glad, after all this while. You were still there, there for me to Love you. And always having you to love me as to so giving me the best present I ever recieved. You. You know how to make me smile at times when I'm down, remebered about her sudden death, And I was so pessimistic about life. You taught me to be optimistic. The way you joke around with our friends, always amuses me. The way you phrase your words, the way how sweet you say things to me, your sweet dedications for me on your blog. The things I treasure the most. You've been a great guy all this while. And I'm sure you will always be. And I love you. Je T'aime Kea. Happy 17 Birthday. "The sun is shining bright; and the stars will point the way. Soon I'll hold you in my arms..." learned that from you, you told me. I believe in it. How I wish I could do the same for you. Have it a great birthday for you.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 4:25 AM.
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Wednesday, July 1, 2009 at 6:32 AM
Everything is more or less settled now. I can finally take a break after all the work. I slept once I reached home. It went well for Kim today. I'm happy but half of the time my body was there and my thoughts far away. She assured me on stuff. Thank you loads. Danna has been giving me lesser pressure lately, and I'm not used to it. She would scream at me for one grammar mistake but she's not as strict as before, and I'm not used to it. Ryan was talking to me the day long, being the very nice guy he told me "Don't worry about it okay. When you fall, we'll pick you up. When you cry, we'll be here to cheer you up." Yeah. Thanks Kim for helping me with his present. I really hopes he likes it... Yeah...
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 6:32 AM.
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