One way ticket to Far Far Away...
No return ticket
 

Yesterday was... I don't know... Was doing things mindlessly more than ever... I'm really tired... Really... I can't take it anymore... Yesterday my sister was cutting something... I was helping her hold the things... Then... Whoa... I wonder how she cuts things... She cut my thumb... The cut was very deep... It felt very raw... My sister was "sorry... sorry" Then she started crying... I never say anything at all... I was sitting cross-legged then I just look at the cut... It was like a both sided cut so both side of my thumb has a deep cut... The blood started dripping... A lot of blood just kept flowing... Toys were stained... The floor too... My leg... I never said anything... I just stared in space... I did not want to wash it so I let it be... I am really tired... I really am... I wanted to give up... But... I trying my best not to... 

Today... Chat with someone by sms-ing... The only person that was concerned about me... Not only but he was quite nice to ask me how I was... Thanks!... The whole day was sms-ing him... From during my badminton training till like 22.50... We talk about lots about stuff... He was... very understanding and patient... Every time we sms it always trails on to until wee hours... Thanks for accompanying me go through today... I thought it was going to be dreadful but anyways Thanks... Tomorrow is PSLE results day... I hope my Mei Debbie did well in her PSLE... And I hope both my Cousins Jun Xiang manage to get in Raffles and that he was able to do well (he is very smart... His end-year-exams marks are able to get in Raffles more then he need to) and Suan Wei who is very good in her Chinese and is taking higher mother tongue gets in to the school she wants which is Fairfield  Secondary... Just like her Sister Suan Fong... Anyways Good luck to the 3 of them and my Primary 6 Juniors who just joined the Secondary School Badminton Team Mandy, Jamie and Claudia... Good Luck...

Finally today came to an end... In the morning do homework... Then go watch movie... Haha... Today only one person called me... Jeanny Jie... No one else sms me or called me... Thank You for your understanding! Went to see my physiologist... Talk to her for very long... I told her I wanted to make my life busier this holidays... So I won't think so much... She is very supportive... I would be finding a part-time job somewhere... Going to KK Hospital or Changi Hospital... To cheer people up... During badminton training will play until tired so when go home will fall asleep... I want to tire myself out... Will find time to go exercise with Jeanny Jie... I will be going for other classes like singing... My physiologist says that I should go for the things I like to do... And It would help me with my problems... Resume piano classes... Maybe would exercise with Siang Shen Di by playing badminton... He always wants to play with me... Maybe by tiring myself out I don't need to think about other stuff... I'll find things to keep me busy... Can't wait to go to do volunteer work... Always wanted to be a volunteer worker... Those who wants to go with me fell free to ask... I don't care what kind of illness they have... I really don't care... I just want to make them happy and see them smile... 

Hello People... I would not be answering any calls for this period of time... You can sms... I don't know if I will reply... You can tag or msn me also can... Especially Brian Kor who calls me everyday I'm sorry... Sorry for the inconvenice caused... Sorry... For those who always conference with me I'm sorry... Really...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTIE TAN!
Today was my Team mate Kristie Tan birthday's... Then today her lucky day... Coach praised her... She beat Vanessa in Badminton... And after training EVERYONE sang BIRTHDAY SONG for her... I think she buying the BLUE RACKET too... Then she went go play arcade.... I can't go... Got Shenyang Training... Kristie Happy Birthday!
<---- The Bubble Tea Present I bought for her... Last year was 20,000 Maple Cash... The Bubble Tea Flavour is Strawberry Ice-blended with Jelly!

Today got badminton training and shenyang training... Later when go shenyang training going to be like half-dead already... Later will blog more... Today must Die-Die blog... Because Today happens to be a happy day for some one haha... Later will announce with big letters why today is someone's happy day haha :)... Thanks for your concerns.... Jessie Jie, Jeanny Jie, Gemini Jie, Amanda Mei... Thanks for your warnings... Jeanny Jie and Jordan Kor... To Chung Rei for saying hi when I never see him (actually you never talk... I never heard your voice even though know you for like 5 years?) I just recognise your sign language haha... Like almost every time you use to communicate with me and Siang Shen Di...   

Have I done something wrong? I don't know... Would not really bother? After all a dying person have to go any way... Gemini Jie still have not give me an answer yet... Don't worry Gemini Jie if you don't get it... I'll ask you later again when you call me at 3... It's like... I'm waiting... So long for it to happen... *Drip... Drip... Drip...*... There is one... two... three... There's more red liquid flowing out of my nose...  *Drip... Drip... Drip...*... Nothing uncommon... it's okay... It happens often... three or more times in two weeks... Wonder when The Reaper would come and take me...  One day the red liquid is all used up... It can't produce anymore... I'll make sure my bone marrow would not be able to produce that red liquid... I know more about what I should know about this... It smells like Iron... Then maybe It's the end... Life or  death does not matter... Living everyday like nothing has ever happened... No I'm wrong... It had never ever changed before so how can something happen...? Speaking in riddles... My favourite...

1.Do you have secrets?
Yes There are dark secrets many kinds...

2.Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
Why not?

3.Do you enjoy going to school?
Yeap. I guess...

4.What would you do with a billion dollars?
Save it all up...

5.Would you fall in love with your best friend?
It happened and still is and I'm loving every moment of it...


6.List out your current 30 favourite songs.
- Liang shan bo yu juliet
- Check yes juliet
- Bleeding Love
- Xin wo
- Apologise
-juan shi tian shi
- Super Women
- This is me
-Mu nai yi
-Love of Thousands of years
- Get High
- Yuan liang wo
- Hao xin fen sho
- Wo ke yi
- Cao cao
- shui mei ren
- Lu Guang
- Ku cha
- Jin Tian Ni Yao jia gei wo
- Wu yue Tian
- San ge xin yuan
- Dunno too many XD


7.Which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved?
Both

8.If the person you like is secretly attached,what would you do?
Then I would be there for him and watch over him...

9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Never... Sorry... My life is a life of the dead...

10.Do you have any regrets?
Yes...

11.How do you find yourself in ten years time?
Being a social worker? Maybe the Force...

12.Who is currently the most important people to you?
Family, friends, him and well basically anybody

13.What kind of person do you think tagged you this is?
One of my best Jie...

14.Would you rather be rich and married or single and poor?
Rich and Married and HAPPY...

15.What are your favourite colours?
Green...Orange...Black...White...

16.Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
What things have I not seen is that Horrible? Of course...

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Relationship...

20.Choose three people to do this quiz.
Sinice my Jie Tagged Little Daddy Roy and Jessie Jie... I Tag Jordan Kor and Amanda Mei.. ^-^

I changed my blog skin and URL... Actually it was not me that change...It was Gemini Jie who did all my whole blog and URL, Then later she slowly go to EVERY Family member and friends blog and use my name to tag for a RE-LINK haha Thanks Gemini Jie!... She knows I had been feeling down this few days... She is trying to cheer me up... Thanks Gemini Jie... Can't wait to go soon this friday or thursday... I would be bringing Jessie Jie along... No where is fun without her... Trust me... she is just full of energy... I'm trying not to think to much... Sorry can't... Taking my own sweet time to write The Merchant of Venice story... I don't want to let it be done so soon... Promises... Are meant to be broken... Yeah... I really don't know what to blog... Life or death don't matter anymore... Really... I'll stop here... Sorry...

... I don't even remember what I did yesterday... I was mindlessly doing things that I don't know what I was doing... I know I never play with my Rubik's Cube for fear that I am going to mess it all up... Because Jordan Kor helped me solved the last layer within like 10 seconds yesterday?... I wanted him to teach me but he solved it so fast that I was not able to learn anything... Yesterday I did things all mindlessly... I remembered I stared in space not able to recall what I was thinking... Today wanted to go to school wearing my OWN shoes... But guess what since the Downpour caused my shoes to be wet... I had to slip my feet into my Second Brother's Sneakers... It was like BLACK and a lot of people were like staring at me like why was I wearing it to school... Forbidden in school... It was very big... Later I'm going to the doctor's again... Maybe Aaron will be there... I'll ask him about his "O" Levels Exam later... Looks like is going very smoothly for Little Daddy Roy and his Precious! Hehe Good Luck and Stay Happy...! She is even precious than his hair... Can you believe it? Haha... I hope Gemini Jie is okay... Ryan too... ... I told them that everything will be fine... Even though both were the same matter but different because of one is a she and the other is a he... I used to think that a Smile would help... I wonder if it does... I wonder how many times he is going to tell me he likes other girls before I give up... Haha... I don't know what's up with me lately... It's like I don't care about my life... Same old boring story... Going to ask Jessie Jie to do me a favour... I'm working on a new short story... The Merchant of Venice... The bond between Antonio and Jessica... Half done... Written it today... Going to finish it soon...

"I think it's time I'm gone..."

Recently a lot has been happening...
Got nothing to say
Today went out with Little Daddy Roy, Jordan Kor and My good friend Jia Yi... Very fun...
Now may I present you Beauty and the Beast

Beauty and the Beast
The Broken Beauty

Once upon a time
There lived a Handsome Prince
He was a unemotional
A witch came and turned him into a beast
She gave him a rose and said that
If the rose dies he would remain beastly forever

The beast was never happy
One day and old man came
Stole a rose from his Garden
The Beast was furious
And said that he had to give his daughter to him

As told the Old man gave his youngest Daughter
Belle was loving towards the beast
But the beast had no feelings to her
She was always there for him
The beast ever broke her heart
But Belle did not mind
She was always by his side
Not complaining at all

Belle had a good friend named Sarah
When the beast saw Sarah
He fell in love with her
Sarah did not know what to do
The story never end
It was Endless

No one Knew what happend
I guess It would remain untold
But in the end the rose Died
And no one knew the end...
-The End-

I really don't know what to blog... Not feeling well this few days...

Quiz Tagged By Little Daddy Roy

7 things that scare me
-Get results for exam
-Have no meaning for life
-Having short hair
-World of loneliness
-No hand phone
-Losing all my Gan's
-Losing you

7 things i love the most
-Handphone
-Neoprints
-My Gan's and friends
-You
-The Piano
-Computer

7 important things in my room
-Bed
-Clothes
-Phone
-Laptop
-Door
-Air-con
-Toys

7 random facts about me
-Loves orange
-Loves Green
-Love to chat alot
-Love to play Piano
-Love going out
-Love taking neoprints
-Likes Badmiinton

7 things to do before i die
-Get married
-Be happy
-Go to the beach
-Smile
-Earn lots of money
-Spend whatever time with someone
-Play badminton

7 things i can do
-Play badminton
-Die
-Work
-Go out with friends
-Play volleyball
-Sleep
-Wish that he is happy

7 things i cannot do
-Undo my mistakes
-Unturn time
-Cry for long
-Don't talk to him and my Gan's
-Don't go out
-Don't think
-Forget...

7 things i say the most
-Hows your day?
-How are you?
-Want to have lunch?
-Meet up soon?
-...
-okay...
-Anything

7 things i recently listened to
-Want to go out?
-I want to...
-You okay?
-Take your inhaler...
-I'll tell him
-He so cute
-You... (Then I point to my friend then she point to another person go on and on)

7 movies/dvd i recently watch
-Gong zhu xiao mei
-High school musical
-Ironman
-Deathnote
-L change the world
-House bunny
-Full metal Alchemist

7 favourite singer
- ~NIL~
- ~NIL~
- ~NIL~
- ~NIL~
- ~NIL~
- ~NIL~
- ~NIL~

7 people i tag to do the quiz
-Jessie Jie
-Amanda Mei
-Jeanny Jie
-Jordan Kor
-Gemini Jie
-Brian Kor
-Little Daddy Roy

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