Romeo and Juliet
The Sad story of Romeo and Juliet

Once upon a time there lived two people
Romeo and Juliet
Both close like brothers and sisters
When Romeo told Juliet
How Much he loved her
Juliet thought she felt the same
But instead She never knew what she was doing
The feelings for Juliet increased in Romeo's heart
When Romeo told her that "Death do us part"
He really meant it
But Juliet just smiled back and nodded
Juliet played his heart like a Harp

Romeo deluded believed that every single day was worth waiting
Romeo loved her all his heart
When Juliet was away he kept thinking of her
When Romeo is away Juliet have you thought of him?
When Juliet left him one day Romeo's heart shattered
Just like a crystal heart
Were you really in loved with Romeo?

Maybe you have your reasons
And you are hurting just like Romeo
Romeo had Good friends like Paris and others
Who cared for him like how you pretended to
Paris gave him a helping hand
Because he knew how it feels like
To have a Heart Shattering like crystal
Paris gave him a sweet
To cheer him up
Juliet don't you think you are selfish?

Those lies you said meant alot to him
"Juliet oh Juliet thou why are you Juliet?"
Do you not know how lucky you are?
There are others that wants your place
"Romeo oh Romeo..."
Don't be disheartened
There are others out there who loves you with their heart and soul
One that starts with an "A"

Who am I to say this things?...
I'm just an Outsider...
Who care's because I felt this too
I know it hurts
I felt this too...


There are others like that girl...
Treasure them
Because they might not be there forever
I'm just an outsider my words are like a voice in your head
-The End-

Learned from my Poetic Kor Jordan from his blog :)
I say I care because I don't know what True Love really mean and how it really feels like to be in Love... But I really want you to know I really will be there for you through all your pain and when you are feeling down... I promise...

"Would you look back..."
"And start afresh..."

I'm back... I'm not going to talk about my trip to malaysia at all because... well it was the worst trip I ever had really... Emoed through the whole holiday... I have to thank my youngest Gan Siang Shen Di... Well thanks for Cheering me up a lot Thanks... You went with me to the arcade like everyday of the holidays with me and chung rei... Thank you the both of you... Almost the whole time in malaysia you were there next to me Thanks... Your playfulness cheered me up a lot... Really... Especially when we were on the bus... you sat next to me and pretended to play the piano... " Deng...Deng..Deng...Den..." Deng...Deng...Deng...Dang" then you said... "Sorry press wrong key"... All this little moves do cheer me up Thanks... Thank you all who commented on my blog especially those usual ones like Gemini Jie... Karin... And Amanda Mei... Every comments is Thank for... Christina... Jeanny Jie... Jordan Kor... And you... Never expected you to read my blog after you were angry... Thank you... Thanks for praying for me Gemini Jie... Brian Kor and Jacky... maybe will ask Jacky to be my gan too... Haha... The Prayers were sweet thanks... I now there's a lot happening recently and that a LOT of people want's me to be happy... I'm so sorry I let all of you down... But I really tried during my trip... I tried but still failed like always... Life and Death do not matter to me anymore... Really... Even if it means time... Kill me won't you?... I know you will... Last thing Karin yeah... sorry to disappoint you... But I guess not only he is still my friend but I guess I will side with him... Sorry Danna...

"If you knew..."
"How much I care"...
" Sooner or later..."
" I will fade from your memories..."
"Like it never happened at all"
" I feel like I never existed in your life..."
"Sorry..."

I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 9:44 PM.

"Hate me ... Hate me not"
Made you angry sorry... Never meant it... Really sorry... This post would be dedicated to you then... I never meant to make you angry i meant it... I wanted to help really... I'm so sorry... so sorry... Really never meant it sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry ...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry....sorry....sorry...sorry...sorry ...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry ...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry... sorry ...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry ...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry ...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry ... sorry... sorry...sorry ...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry ...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry ...sorry ...sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry... sorry...sorry ...sorry...sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry...sorry ...sorry ...sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry.... sorry.... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry... sorry.... sorry... sorry... sorry.... sorry... sorry... sorry... I really never meant it sorry... Will emo for today maybe through the holiday... Won't be able to blog till thursday... I'm really sorry... This post wold end here it's my 50th post... This whole post is dedicated to you only... Sorry... Think it's not enough sorry's...
"Missing you... Missing you not..."

"Love me... Love me not..."

Thanks Jordan Kor for checking up on me will try to be happier! Thanks Gemini Jie but I WILL stop you for hurting yourself... Thanks Christina for your wise words... Karin I mean Thanks for like... Your care... Wise words and stuff... Finally link Kristie... Have not tag her... Finally Link my friends and teammates... I felt like this had been thr first time alot of people csred for me... I like this feeling... Thanks alot to all who cares for me... Aaron disappaered... His parents are too busy... I hope Aaron manages to do well in his 'O' Levels exams... Good Luck Aaron... I'm going malaysia in two more days... Going to buy ALL my GANS and those I link in the Topic My Family in my blog presents... Will be back on thursday... And on 27 november to 8 december going to shenyang school trip... I got to get in secondary 3 express... My dad owes me something... I got nothing to say already... Cannot emo too... Promise my Gans try not to emo... Once I think of him I don't know what I'm going to do...

> " End it... End it not..."

"Loving you Once... Twice..."

I finally got through one problem... Thank God... Then lately i have been listening to this song called 私奔到月球 by 五月天... It's very nice... For those who want to hear the link is below this post... It's surprising thst I'm listening to this can't of music because I had been listening to music like "Bleeding Love" for like a long time already because I thought I had no more reason to be here... Maybe the orld is not that cruel... Thanks Jacky! Haha and for commenting about my blogskin... Haha I chose this because I like the Piano... Thanks Karin for speaking up for me... Congrats to my Daddy Roy who got back with his Stead... Gemini Jie... I'm really sorry... Don't worry Karin, me and others will stand by you... I owe Kristie $2... Haha for yesterday's Bubble Tea... Must remember go tag and link her blog later... I'm going out later... If I'm "lucky" would get to see Aaron... Haha... I keep playing that song... I don't think I'll be able to rest... I always wanted to help people... Now I got it... I can't give up like that... Even though I know that I myself have not settle my own I would still rather settle others first... I had always put others before myself. I know I'm being selfish doing like this... I'm sorry I can't help it... Sorry...

" Forgetting you Forth... Fifth..."

私奔到月球 by 五月天http://www.imeem.com/xiia0zhu/video/NZEF05zw/wu_yue_tian_chen_qi_zhen_si_ben_dao_yue_qiu_m/

"Rob my heart... Don't give it back...''
"... It feels so empty..."

Believe it or not my life actually started getting worse... When it could not get any worser it did... Now I don't care about myself anymore... I'm going to pat more attention to Gemini Jie... All my Gans... I hope to ease others pain as well because I don't want them to be like me... The endless black pit where I fell... Even though the person is not there anymore to help me I will still try to hold on well helping others... I don't care about myself... Now it's going to be others... Ryan congrats on your aces!... Well Karin congrats about your improvement... Gemini Jie congrats bout your marks! And that you pass... Little Daddy Roy Don't give up so easily... Don't say those bad things about yourself too... Later still got CCA at three... Don't want to go... But cannot don't go... Worried about some friends of mine too... Brian Kor is an Idiot... Today was late for his work... Liang you are sick... Hope you are better... I don't know what to blog... These few days cannot concentrate... I wish time could go back... or maybe I should not have existed... Who thought such a normal world could actually have monstrous creature like me... How can it be possible? I thought this was a normal planet?... Maybe not...

" If only the world..."
" Was what I had expected it to be..."

"... I can't believe I'm going to side with him... I don't blame him..."
" That's cause you love him..."

"Thanks Gemini and Karin for both your wise words"
Hello Folks! Guess what? My sanity is up! I'm going crazy from now onwards... ... ...
 Yesterday when I came back... I heard some bad news... I emo the whole night... Today celebrated Halloween... Thanks Gemini Jie for making the fake blood it was awesome... It was like real blood... Deck in my Victorian Grey blouse with Jeans... And I put a drop of blood at the end of my lip at the right side and let it drip... It was so real that my friend ask me what happened to my mouth... Everybody was staring  at me... AND KARIN... I help her mummified herself... She dipped her whole hand in it and then wrap it with tissue paper... Karin wore a black tee That says "emo." and her coat... with fashionable boots... I did not turn up for today's training today... Went to see Mrs Koh... the school counsellor... Then like... Mood swing so fast... Talk all day bout my " family"... if it do exist... Then cry... Talk to Christina... She is right about everything she said... Thanks for the talk... Then came home emo again... I lost my appetite... Was begging Brian Kor to do something for me...

I doubt you now... I really do... But I'll side with you... And also be there for you like how you were there for me... I'm not going to blame you... Don't worry I'm somewhere out there squatting down licking my wounds... It will hurt a little... get swollen and sting... But I don't care... I can't help worrying for you and others... But I know I have to face mine sooner or later... Yeah maybe I just naive... I'll try to change... My ways of thinking... The locket hung on my neck... It's empty... Sooner or later it might stay empty too bot there might be someone's name or someone's picture in it... But I want you to know I have not given up in anything yet...

" Look back sometimes..."
" But look back without regrets..."

LIfe's dreadful yes it is and it will always be... Argued with my parents again as usual... well nothing is unusual... and nothing is a miracle... Let's see... missing you every second... every minute... and every single day... It's a dread... It's like water falling from a leaf... " Drip... Drip... Drip..." Never ending hope... I've been eating alot this few days... I eat when I'm upset... I think I just put on weight oh dear... I just could not concentrate... I think... This is what I deserve for being caught in someone's love story... More problems had been coming... Soon I'll settle them... I hope... I dread seeing you pictures... Why...Why...Why... I hate it...
Now for other people...
Gemini Jie
You are sick! Hope you get well soon...

Brian Kor
Idiot... I knew you still have not given up! Good luck!

That person out there
I'm okay... Just posting what I don't dare to say...
Hope you are well

The other person
I'm sorry...

Is it just me or am I always affected by little tiny stuff like... I bother to count the hearts on his blog and stuff and compare to see how much does he really care for me or how close he is to me... Wait I think it's just me... Yeah... I can't believe this actually affects me... Sooner or later I'm going to get envious of everyone who has more hearts... Wait... I'm just being childish... I can't believe it... I still connected to him... Anyway I guess I can't wait for tomorrow... Seeing Aaron tomorrow... I can't wait to see his smiles and his comforting... Kim was like " You should go for it!"... Then I was like " Maybe... I don't know"... I said I'll wait maybe... I will but at the same time have some fun... DO I deserve it?... The first time I saw Aaron... He smiled his perfect smile... Maybe... Haha... And guess what?... He is exactly like you... The smile was so sweet... Tasted like honey... Really?... I think so too... But you know what?... He is the opposite of you... You are just so open... Thick-skin too... You are daring... You would try to do what you want... By all means... You are Hyper... Sweet... Funny... Just say almost perfect...  Aaron... well the total opposite... Sweet... Nice... Shy... Not as open or daring... not as thick-skin... Quiet... But I hope I can change him... Maybe into you... Replacement for you... Just that... Both of you are there when I need you... Your and His smiles are just what I want to see that would be able to make me smile... When it comes to clothing... Both of you are okay... I mean I saw him in school uniform... You too... And then outside clothes... Yeah you both would had pass what I expected... When it comes to height... I'm sorry... Aaron is tall and you are not... His legs are long... Nice too... Size?... Maybe you would have been of the ideal size... Aaron is just smaller?... Yeah that's what I need a replacement of you... Just to keep me distracted... Kim was able to keep me distracted with her problems for the time being... But I still drifted of after awhile... And thought of you... I'm really need to Thank MY JIE'S... especially Jessie and Kim... You both just sometimes say the things I need to hear the most Thank you... For helping me cope with my emotions to actually lock them all up in the box even though it's worth making a fuss out of it... Thank You for helping me have a good- self control over myself... Jeanny Jie... Thanks... YOU are there for me in a different way... I want to Thank you... Karin... Thanks for opening me up by talking about my past with me so coolly and not having a big reaction about it... Brian Kor... Who Prank calls me and sometimes cheer me up and always joke with me on the phone... Ryan... Thanks for talking some sense in to me about life... And ... Roy, My Daddy... Thanks a lot... For being there for me! Really you were the best... I knew you longer... You were there for me since Last year... I been wanting to Thank you... But soon after you became special... To me... Thanks for being able to act so normal when I'm there... I hate those who avoids the person when they know... You were there... And like some kind of "angel" Know when I need you and stuff... Thanks for the smiles and your helping hands and for being my Gan Daddy... An Lastly... Aaron... Thanks for those encouraging smiles... Maybe there might be some hope in me... Maybe my Gemini Jie can break my determination and you stand a chance... And Those Problems... Jessie Jie... I'll support your decision... Jeanny Jie... Hope you meet him again... Gemini Jie... I'll try to make you happy again... Brian Kor... Good Luck with that Girl... Jordan Kor... Good Luck with that girl you want to be with... Sheri and Ryan to Stay Happy and Healthy... Roy to be happy with his stead Amanda... Aaron... Give each other time to know each other better and that you will be happy and healthy!... And for every one who reads my blog... Hope you will be happy and healthy!... I'll smile more... I promise

It hurts to know... Really... Good news I'm not Hurting ANYMORE! REALLY! but the other side of the story is... Instead I'm Dying... Slowly but dying... Like a dying withering rose... One day I'll just disappear... Really... I'm trying my best to advoid the thoughts in my head that would cause me harm... I should thank god that I can still laugh and actually control myself... I really want to burst out crying in the crowd... maybe some people might take pity on me... I don't know... All I know is that I want you happy... Don't look back if you feel that I'm slowly disappearing... I trying my best to stop liking you... I'll disappear slowly and by the time you look back... I'll seem to you like I had never exsisted before... I'm willing to do that so I won't stress you... I know you hate being under pressure... Slowly I'll be like someone in a old historian book... Don't worry... No self harm on myself is done... Don't worry... I harm myself mentally... I'll do whatever you want... It's going to hurt me... Don't worry... I'll be okay... I'll still be waiting for you... My smiles are not the same anymore... do you notice?... I had mood swing regulary... It's okay as long as you are happy... I'll be waiting... No matter how many people ask me... or how long I'll wait...

This photo was taken by Jeanny... I have no mood to blog about the day but Jeanny Thanks for cheering me up... I'm tired... Really... When was it the last time I had rested properly... I know I'm going to flunk my exams... I have been doing other things instead of studying... And when I thought things would be better on... It just got worse... More tears... Stuff... My hands are full... When I get home more screaming and shouting... And then most of the time is on the phone... I tried my best to pay full attention to classes...Though I don't think it made a difference... I also don't want to have this terminal illness... I mean... Why is it so unfair?... Well if I did not have the illness maybe I can be normal like other people... I delude myself since I was young... Saying my Parents love me... I'm normal like everyone... I'm happy... And stuff... Well since my parents forcefully made me accept that I have the illness... What do you expect from me?... I being more than I had even thought I could be... Why can't I be happy like other people... Why can't I be wanted by my parents... The smiles all behind the pictures... They are all hiding my pain and stuff... I hate people staring into my eyes... I'm scared they see my pain... My past... My thoughts... My worries... Now I have to face more problems... I want to run away... Maybe even end it slowly... Run away from home... I'm not sure... It's painful to burden it alone... But I'm afraid to share it... Burden someone else... I'd rather suffer alone... The small little bomb in it would blow up soon... After all my life is never worthy... So why not bare the pain alone till the end?... Alone... Like always...

Whatever happens it's your decision... As much as I always keep saying... I'm the puppet and you my master... Some words cannot be said out... If you want to give me away to that person... I'm okay with it... You tell me to be happy with him I'll try... Thank you for being there for me... That person is after my heart... I don't think he knows that what is living in me is not my heart but just the shell... You stole my heart... I'm happy but at the same time it's kinda painful... But I'm okay with it... Well what happens this week it's going to be between you, me and him... But mostly you and him because I'm just a puppet... It's okay if you do give me to him... At least that's what you want... I can live with that... And just pretend he is you... Just another Delusion... Like always deluding myself the past few years of my dreadful life till I met you... I'm okay living in another delusion with you there... Again you are there for me thank you... When those who knows about this, they ask me what am I going to do about it... I just say... "Well... It's up to him..."... An unwanted puppet... with her master who has a heart of gold... A stranger who wants the puppet... The puppet is wanted now... More as the puppet who does not want to be given away it's not her choice.. It's her master... I'm always happy being with you... I'm talking in circles... I'm sorry... As long as you are happy... I want to see that smile across your face flash whenever I'm with you... That playful smile of yours... I'm finally happy being with someone and also want to be by his side... Another miracle... Why you?... I don't know... As long as you are happy... I won't blame you if you give or keep me... I would try to find something positive about it... Whatever happens... It's your decision... Listen to your heart and do what it says... I don't want to stress him more ever see him in pain... No one can change your decision because you are you... Just be yourself and do it with confidence...

I seriously admit the fact that I might actually lost my sanity... I couldn't stop smiling to myself... Its like "snap" and my brain disconnected and floated away... to a far away place where I can finally be happy... I kept smiling yesterday night till this morning... I just could not stop smiling... Gemini Jie was like..."you are really happy aren't you?"... Then I was like "Yeah"... Haha... Then I called Jeanny Jie yesterday night... I was like "Jeanny!" then I was like... "I'm so happy!" Haha... Just because he actually read my blog and Thank God he was okay... And I'm happy until like this... Hehe... Friday... Jeanny Jie is coming my house... Saturday going Suntec with a few people... Going eat buffet with Roy Daddy, Jessie Jie, Jordan Kor... Maybe ask Jeanny Jie come with us... Not confirm... Then going Vivo with Debbie Mei... Then... Out with Siang shen Di and Chung rei... Jeanny Jie for sports and shopping... Gemini Jie... I'll try to be happier... Thanks alot... I need something... To break my smile... If I continue being like this my Lips would crack! Haha... Just Joking... I am truly happy to feel this way... Thank you alot... I won't think unhappy thoughts... I will try not to be sad... I mentioned... The puppet and her master... Whatever My master wants... I will try to to do it... I kept thinking why... I have to admit love... Is truly unpredictable... Like I mentioned... When I need you... you would appear... Thats really true... There are more problems coming... I'll tell you when the time is near... It will be soon... Problems and more Problems... I don't want to burden you... One by one it drops... I would rather Burden myself then to burden you really... That happy smile... I see across your face... It's always smiling... never frowning... Thank You... You are always there... and I hope you will always be there no matter what... I hope and wish...

I'm hurting again... When was it the last time when someone actually stop and notice that I'm hurting? When did the people who I cared for became the people who cared for me? That was a miracle... You finally tag... I was so happy... I ignored the rest... and replied you... I have to be understanding... even though... I'm doing the papers... I keep thinking about you... whether you are fine... are you happy... are you smiling... are you sad... Time heals all... So whatever happens... it's not your fault... If I'm hurt... it's not your fault... and Kim if I fell down the stairs and die its not your fault it's mine... Well I really want to end it... After all I was unwanted... It hurts to know... Whatever I do it's not your fault it's mine... Though I miss him badly I rather not tell him... I don't want him to be stressed... I want him to be happy... He has his freedom... its like *stab* *stab* *stab*... then pain... ow... ow... ow... then... I'll just drop... one day... and maybe... I would never be able to see... hear... and laugh with you again... I'm really tired... things all happened recently... I might as well just give up.... lose the race... I can't really do anything... but I really don't want to lose you... but I can't wait forever... I know my limit to sanity is almost up... So I treasure the few moments I have with you... On count down... Maybe 10... 5... or even 1...   

Bleeding Love
By: Leona Lewis

Closed off the love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Times starts to pass
Before you know it your're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I  don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vain
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

 Keep bleeding
Keep, bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with the doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me for falling

But nothing greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
 I see your fae
Yet everyone around me
Thinks That I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vain
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me  open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vain That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep,keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

 Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep Bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
 Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep Bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding

http:// www.imem.com/lewiscat/music/n-e75e6c/leona_lewis_bleeding_love/#Gvt7Jqt178UD1CO

I'm in pain again.... Have you notice that I have always been sitting down rocking up and down in pain until I had met you? Maybe you never because you had forgot about my past? Never bother to read? It's like... I wanna to run in front of a car... But then when the car comes... I bent down and curl preparing to brace myself for the pain... and you will be there always staring at me... I turn to look at you for the last few moments I have and then... I wake up... I have been having this nightmare more often then I used to have... Maybe it's you I have not allow myself to let go of... That's why I never been in the news... You accidentally stole my heart... I don't need it... I am yours now... Just like a puppet... I'm of your disposal... So just throw me... I won't change my feelings for you... It's your choice if you throw... Don't worry... I'll be physically fine... But not mentally... If you really know me inside out then... You should know that I'm suffering... Don't worry as long as you are happy I'm fine with it... I'll just slowly die away so you won't remember me... I'll try my best to do whatever makes you happy... Whatever you request I'll try to fulfill it... I promise... You know I'll try to keep to my word... So why not make the best out of it... No matter what happens I'll always be standing at the back... looking over you... Supporting you like what you did when I needed someone the most... I know you will have many other supporters too and friends that will be there for you... But I just want to say... I'll be there whenever you need me... Right at the very end of the line.... Just try turning back and smile at me... That would had made my day... Or sms me when you are free... Ask me to call you... I'm always willing... I promise... That would have made me really happy... I don't ask much... I'm not going to do anything stupid if you reject me... I will just continue to wait... Like always... No matter what I'll be there... I promise you... I really want to hear what is troubling you... Your complains... and whines... your laughter... your voice.... No matter how long you are going to use me I won't complain... I just wished... that I was the kind of girl you like... I really do... and I'm sorry...

Designer: ForThe!Wonder
Tabling Codes: darkdegree
Icons: In-Lockdown & Sealedcards
Font: Tall Films
Stripe Pattern: Mintyferret
Inspiration: Love-notes.org