Another Christmas Present I just recieve a book from CitiGold... And they always say worlds local bank... Okay I got it from Mr Mark my dad's advisor... Currently known as uncle mark for me... It's a book... Named bones... Anyone wants to read it can ask from me after I read finish...

I wanted to delete that post... TOO WAY DANGEROUS... Someone stop me... From doing changes and deleting it... He guessed spot on... REALLY GREAT FRIEND... Hehe THANKS I LOVE YOU!!!! (as a great great great great uber great friend) This post is dedicated to you!!!!! REALLY you are one in an thousand!!! Thanks (:

I got more then what I wanted from him... It was enough when one says " Happy Birthday" because it would make my day... Others would build up to make my day but a .............. And a ........... Is so much more then what I wished for... Thanks... Really... Thanks... I shall blog more next time... Hm... It's going to be so.... Yeah... I know liking someone is a sin for me that is... Yeah only for me it's a sin... It is because I might just hurt him in the end or something... Let's see out of 10 only like 2 or 3 percentage he will like me maybe even 1.... Yeah it's a sin... A sin... My life has no Garden of Happyness (Happiness)

What if the world was not what you had expected it to be?... Of course... It won't because it won't because you are nobody... Yeah... I don't really know what to expected for today... Lots of people SMS me... Even from china too... Never thought he knew... Jordan kor SMS me too... Hehe he bought presents for me too... Hehe... Wilson kor also... The only thing I have control over is my life... I'm changing my lifestyle again... This time to a more private lifestyle... The old one did not go according to what I wanted it to... Lots if people told me to smile... How I wish I could... Wonder where it went... My dream
And ambition? Sorry it's like some kind of weird ambition... I think it's crazy... Yeah... Life can't get any better can it? There so many people who message me like my aunt and stuff... Why?... Yeah... My life are mostly down ones... Hm... Smile? Let's wait for another war to spark and new highly dangerous weapons made by Britannia maybe like Knightmare Frames or a Lancelot to be build then I'll smile... Because that would have been half of what my ambition is... Yeah I'm going insane... Lost my appetite and mood today

TODAY is my birthday! It's Ian's and Nicholas's birthday too! Hehe Raphael had to go earlier yesterday... But yeah... Talked until 11 plus... Then after that Ryan and Gemini Jie massage me... Messages came in at 12 and 2 today morning... Loads at 12 and one at 2... Sms Ryan till going 3... Then later Daddy Roy sms me in the morning... Some team mates sms me... Okay... Surprised that they remembered... Hehe Thanks ALL!... Can't wait for tonight...

The more I wanted something the more I would never tell never ask... Why?... Makes me feel greedy... Then it goes... " It's not like you always ask for things"... I reply " So what if I don't ask much... At least I would feel better"... Then I thought... I used to think that everyone should let me because I was ill-fated... But I stopped that kind of thinking long ago... Because I don't want it to ruined me... Yeah... It makes me feel bad... I don't want to live a life full of regrets... Used to be so self-centered... Sorry I changed... Just that I rarely show... Now I want to show... Really... Seven Friends motivated me... It's like Re-opening myself...I don't know how they did it but yeah... I mean no one has really made me smile so much... And always looking forward to talk to them... It's amazing... I guess this could be both my Christmas and Birthday presents... Seven Friends is all I need... Really trust me... It's more than I can ask for... Really... Seven special friends... Each and every different in their own way... Really Special... My seven shining stars... They did it using so little time... to know me better... It has a great feeling... Really... Thank you... HEHE! He's coming!!!

Was chatting again... Hatori, Kea, Nathan were talking about music then after that I was thinking... Then I became insane... Yeah... Not usual... But yeah... got to stressted about something... Could not control... Burst... Yeah thanks to Hatori, manage to calm me down... Kea for making me feel better... Gemini Jie for making you worry I'm sorry... Not only was I thinking about my stuff I had to help to solve someone's problems... I decided mine was a hopless case... so I just thought to myself... No way... And thats all

... ... ... Let's see...
... This is something for the sake of fun...
Those who love shopping talk to hyper active bunnies Tiffany and Stacy (Girls) (snicker)
Shopping for boys find out-going Ian
If you want entertainment hook up with Raphael and Nathan those who can makes things interesting 
Those who loves Sake... Or feeling down could find quiet and friendly Hatori...
Those who Doodles and wanna make more friends go and catch up with bubbly Gemini Jie... (:... Hehe.. Talk yesterday like usual... Had to go first... Hehe... Anyway moms shouting now hehe...

Yesterday night till toady morning like around 1.30 a.m. plus was on msn... Hehe... Was talking to Gemini Jie then later Raphael joined then Tiffany... Then Stacy... Ian... and lastly Hatori... The usual seven... Then later Tiffany had to go then after that stacy went... Ian needed to crash (sleep)... Then the four of us played Truth... Raphael was first... He asked me then the game went on... Stacy came and went again... Then loads of question was ask hehe... Hatori gave Raphael a christmas present... At first Raphael was making a big fuss over it hehe... Then soon Hatori had to go... then Gemini Jie and left me and Raphael... He wanted to know the answer which I had not replied yet... I finally answered... Hehe Really had great time talking to you people... It was not as boring as I thought my christmas would be... THANKS!!

I've been thinking a lot these days... Most of a time I don't know what I am thinking about but it came to my head today... Stop praying... I don't know... It's weird... I mean it came to my mind that if you want to change your life do it using what you have... Don't pray because if it really work then everyone would be happy... I don't know what kind of grudge I am holding on to... But even if it do comes true what do you want to do about it?... I mean there are loads of people out there praying to the All Mighty Omega... Answering prayers are not like sending out e-mails... Just by a click and yeah like your prayers would come through... I really don't know what's gotten in to me but yeah... Enough ranting for now... Was wondering if there was not only me but was  there a him in the picture...( it could be anyone)... Then I thought again... Maybe there won't be because maybe I just don't want to be hurt... But mostly I don't want him to be hurt... Some ever saw me suffering before in the hands of my illness... I know Gemini Jie got really freaked out... Because she used to sit just behind me... And yeah some panicked... Caused quite a commotion... Then i was thinking... Made to be but not fated or maybe fated but not meant to be... What's the point... If you don't have both then too bad... Even if you are made to be what's the point if you are not fated... And even if you are fated what's the use if you are not meant to be?... Exactly like the old Romeo and Juliet... Hm... How much would someone risk to know me better?... Even so... It would be really hard to know what's going on inside my head... That's cause I don't know who to trust... I actually know what I'm thinking it's just that I'm being oblivious to it... I swore never to continue the story I had written this year... I swore never to draw again... But why do I want to do it... I don't know... 

Thanks for the tags
Rapheal a.k.a kea
Ian
and tiffany
and christina

HAHAHA I FINALLY WRAP ALL THE PRESENT!
There is
Roy's
Jessie's
Gemini's 
Jordan's
Karin's
Amanda's
Ryan's
Hehe... Brian's is specially made something like that :) it's pay back time :) hehe...
Jeanny's? Hey hey! Yours is delivered already and it's with me! :) all in different wrappings I'll post the pictures soon as for the presents? Let's meet up soon okay? 

Hi people! :D Okay! Changed the skin.
And it's so obvious it's not Rainie blogging.
It's Kim AKA Gemini Jie ._." blogging
on be half of Rainie :D Woot! Well.
I hope everybody will like it :D
But it's not as if I made the skin x.x
Lol! But yeah. Anyways. Byebye! <3! :D

Things to buy for CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!
Twilight
Chocolate Bars
Kakashi Plushie
A small badminton shuttle (FRAGILE and can be hit too (:! !NOT SURE! )
T- Shirt?!
and five more that I'm not sure of...
Go figure out which present's are for who (:

Oh Christmas... Just nine days away... I guess I'll just have to work yeah?... Money.... Need money... God...
Christmas Shopping List...
Plushie
Books
Dye
Cookies?
Chocolate
More Presents...
I wished I could give happiness
I need to work... Find part-time job or something... I need my leg to heal... I'm begging for it to...  Cause even now my leg is trying to ditch me... I can't really run or stand in the same spot for very long... Because if I do my leg would be sore and ache and then it would just like fall? Like how a leaf drops to the ground... And I would fall...  It hurts... Even though... I can't give up badminton... I've went so far... All the physical training... All the smashes that hit me... I'm not going to walk away... And I won't just give up like that... Who cares whether it is starting to fail like the rest of me... Cause I know what I want this time... So all of you don't worry... (: least I'm still smiling right? (:

Sometimes I don't know what to expect... It's like some kind of melo-drama... Split into two... One at the other side of the world the other one is near but distant... At the other side... I heard from his class mates that he loves and wear the things I gave him... What am I expected to say? I mean I know it's a little too much that he was the only one who gets a whole stack of presents... I knock him out and steal back the watch if he does not wear it... Why? Because first it's a branded watch... The cost was okay I guess... It's a very nice watch... it's a Levi's watch... I asked his classmate to give him one present a week... Last monday he got the watch... This week he got a towel... I heard he likes it a lot... Both the presents... His classmates said that he brings it to school everyday... After all, all this items  is needed by him... The other one... He received a Leo Teddy Bear... And chocolates... I went to his house... I saw the bear hanging on his book shelf... The chocolates? I bet he shared with his sister and older brother... I was wondering what kind of presents to give to him and his siblings for christmas... I don't want to make it so obvious... I used to go to is house once a week... But now I rarely do... I'll pop by soon I guess... As for the christmas presents for my Gans and those who are labeled under My Family in my blog... I guess I know what to give... Hehe... countdown... 9 more days to Christmas!... 

I'd Survived... Brilliant... I'd was hoping a plane crash or something and all would happily survive and I'm the only one dying... Hey no hard feelings if people die's instead of me okay?... Then I was hoping for terrorist attack... Maybe bus crash or my asthma would act up... More blood came flowing... I manage to survived that too... When I look in the mirror... It terrifies me... It's like you know your time will come... But looking at yourself bleeding... It's like a gush just flows through you and everything flows past you very slowly in blank white space... I did collapse once there in my room... Thank Goodness my Room mate  was sleeping at her friends room and I had the whole room all to myself... I almost collapse during a game of badminton in the school's gym... Playing badminton short sleeved in a cold weather... and you wore short sleeve because for the freedom of movement.... Great... You would have almost caught headlines in the school like how you did there for being able to play badminton with the only one who seems to be the only one who has great badminton skills who uses like 3/4 of school time playing badminton with the teachers and coachers because his been excused... How would I know he is quite famous in the school... Everybody just keep looking at me... Some even whispered his name when thy saw me... Hey it's not like I can't hear or anything... So please... You want to talk bad about me say it to my face... The worst was in his class... He is the head  class leader so every time he looks at me my schoolmates tease me... When he went up to be the MC for a presentation people just smug and look at me... When he did a speech...  His class mates look at me... Even worse... When I had to pair up with him for badminton against his coach and coach good friend... His classmates and all those who went to the china trip gathered to watch the match... All were cheering for the both of us... But it's just not right... It feels wrong... The whole world is wrong... Those who wants to know his name?... I can tell you he is another guy that reminds me of someone... ... I feel like I am wandering away from all my loved ones...

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