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Monday, August 31, 2009 at 7:10 AM
This little 7 year old boy asked. "What happened to your neck?" And I was taken aback and I bend down, "Just some scratches" And he said, "You must be more careful." And for a kid, he spoke fluent english with a slight american accent. Haha, and I don't know him at all. And it was kinda shocking, and yeah. I don't like it when people know what I'm thinking. It doesn't make a difference. Passer, It's a pleasure too... You are?
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 7:10 AM.
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Friday, August 28, 2009 at 6:57 AM
"If I were to have a flower; whenever I thought of you. I would be walking in my garden of flowers forever." Went around today. Then I saw my tuition friend Bryan. Surrounded with girls, as usual and his guy friends too. And he waved, and those girls turn around and stared at me. The last time he waved at me his friend or girlfriend glared at me. And it kinda happened again when the same girl passes by me today. And then after that I remembered I'm not going tuition today, I'm going to the Sunday morning class one. So I went to tell him, and this time it was only one girl with him. The rest were playing arcade. And I tapped him and he looked at me, and smiled. I swear that I don't pay attention to him, usually I'm thinking of him and my close friends, but then I noticed how pretty his eyes were when he looked at me. He had this pair of kind eyes, which was sparkling and his eyes had nice black outlines, which made it stand out and made him look pretty. And the girl looked over at me, so Estelle backed me up. And before he left he waved bye and I just looked. Haha. Estelle was telling me about the Sempai's and I was laughing as they were really funny and we kinda predicted something. "Oh My God it's Sasuke!" Momo shouts. "Er..." Hitoshi was stunned. "OH MY GOD!" Momo starts chasing Hitoshi as he kinda looked like Sasuke *Hitoshi makes a run for it* "DON'T GO!" Momo tried reaching for Hitoshi with Yayoi Sempai hand restaining Momo on her forehead, Hisagi Sempai on her feet and Asaki Sempai pulling her back. "RAIN?! What the hell? Who is she?!" Yayoi Sempai screams at Rain. "Er her name is Momo. Rings a bell?" I replied. "OH! OH! OH!" Asaki Sempai said. *Hitoshi walks away.* "NOOOOOOO!" Momo screams. *Asaki Sempai breaks into a song, and Momo sang along forgetting about "Sasuke"* "Are you alright 'Sagi?" Yayoi said concerned. "Yeah." He replied. Came that out when me and Estelle was watching Naruto. 10 days to go?
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 6:57 AM.
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Thursday, August 27, 2009 at 5:49 AM
All that I could think of is about things related to you. It plays over and over. You're one of my two best friends. But I'm a hopeless person who can't help you or him. Argh. I started writing to Yayoi Sempai and Hisagi Sempai again. Apparently they went to the Summer Festival too. Okay not only them, Yayoi Sempai, Hisagi Semapi, Hatori, Raiga, Asaki Sempai and Texas. (Once in a year Japan Summer Festival, which in Summer has many things going on!) One of the must go Festivals. Held in SJS. Some older senior there tapped me and ran away. And I stood there "...". I heard something happened to Raiga Sempai (I'm in a mood to make him feel superior therefore the Senior at the back of his name. HAHA. If only I could really witness the accident. I'll laugh my head off.) The festival was really fun. All those dancing and stuff. If only. If only. I want to drink SAKE. Okay I lost my mind. Passer: Erm. No. I'm not a model, I'm a pure blood athlete. Erm... The Japanese Genes, my Papa said it was my Grandmomma's good genes or was it late Great Grand Mother's good genes. Either way round. Thanks for your compliments? Who are you anyway?
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 5:49 AM.
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Saturday, August 22, 2009 at 2:32 AM
 I played around with the colours. Haha. My God Momma. It gets bad to worse now and then, it's going wrong. "Don't get pissed okay?" Danna said. And I wondered why I would. And she muttered two words. And I was like "HUH?!" She watched me closely, first anger spread but one second later, I was overwhelmed by mixed emotions. Why do I feel a little more relief? "I told you he was a bad ass." She said. But then maybe it's my fault for trusting you. But then again, I'm choosing to trust you. But I'm not on your side. I'm on his. I used to not take sides. And usually believe that everyone should have chances. But I'm sorry that I'm taking sides.
I don't want to talk about it. No. It's alright. Believe whatever you want. I can't be bothered anymore.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 2:32 AM.
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009 at 7:18 AM
Happy Birthday Jun Xian!
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 7:18 AM.
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Sunday, August 16, 2009 at 5:53 AM
Rain is a nerd. -.- RMK is dating a nerd. -.- My little sister is a nerd. -.- Altair's chibi is a nerd. -.- Violet's good friend is a nerd. -.- Ian's little twin sister is a nerd. -.- Ian is a cool nerd. :D Rain is a retarded nerd. -.- But the main point is that Rain is a nerd! :D Composed By: Kim. :D HAHA. :D You say he knows? Really? You mean all this time he knows? Why does it makes me want to scream at him? Why does him telling me through someone else saying he knows, makes me so angry? Why does him telling her through someone else saying he knows, makes her cry? He knows, all this time, He knew. I don't know what else is there to say anymore. I miss you, I miss how we used to talk about clothes. I miss how I used to help you with clothes, I miss how you used to help me with clothes. I miss your happiness. I miss how you jump at me and shout "HI RAIN!" I miss you. I miss how much the colour violet suits you. We miss you so very much. And he misses you the most. Will I ever want to tell others about things? I don't know. It's hard. No one ever listen. That's why I learned not to share. Failing so miserably in life. Seeing others doing things perfectly flawless. The burden of their words. It's weighing me down. The guilt of something is also weighing me down. Struggling with it. Failing so bad. The amount weighs on me. Their fallen hopes that weighed on me, But me being the failure, Just haunts me. The worry for her. The guilt of the stab meant for me taken by someone else. The failure being plastered on me in front of them. The thin line that I'm being forced to. All the support I've been given, From my best friends, guardian, big brother to him. Never once from the people who I wanted from. I've tried, I've tried... But it's never enough. It never is. Things that hurt, I just don't want to share them, Things won't change, will there? The amount of things that might slip through my fingers, The amount of every little thing. Makes it even harder to go to sleep as the day passes. It's so hard to avoid.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 5:53 AM.
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Wednesday, August 12, 2009 at 4:56 AM
Blood shed all over the streets, bruises all over, darkness for the one and only, strangers close in, you're all alone, your close ones away, distant, pain, loss, feelings playing over and over, pain. Pain being the very clear feeling, Why? This should not have happened. No. Knowledge is a wretched thing. We should have kept it from you. But we had to tell, maybe all of us are regretting having you knowing, or maybe I do. It's a mistake. I'm so sorry. Oh. Screw it. Screw this.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 4:56 AM.
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009 at 5:39 AM
Every now and then, blood trickles down my finger tips, so long this World. Never less, so long and see you my next life. Nothing's up, still remembered. Her. And also another Her. The first one whom has treated me with so much care and concerned. Much more then what I get from my Momma. The other one who treated me with so much patience. Patience many others can't give me. One who got stab because of me the second one making me see the world in another prospective. One who stood by me, the other who taught me. Both so strict, yet so kind. Two wonderful people. I can't and never forget. "Poke" E "Did you just poke her?" J "Er. Yeap!" *Laughs hysterically* E "HAHAHAH" J "..." M Don't you think being able to feel like being in a family just so nice? I'll never forget. "You're busy, I know. I'm fine Don't worry about me. They'll look after me, Je T'aime."
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 5:39 AM.
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Friday, August 7, 2009 at 6:42 AM
It's like two troubled people in a group of happy people. No? Look at it this way. Denial. Denial that you say everything will be fine. But you know it won't. Denial about other stuff. You miss him? I know. I can tell. Looking at the way you are in school and in your own world. You've been there for me and even remembering something like what you said today, Cheer up. Telling others to cheer up when you need it to. So ironic. All is well, all will be fine. We shall all cheer up. It's the fourth month already...
Happy fourth month. Je T'aime, Kea.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 6:42 AM.
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Thursday, August 6, 2009 at 7:58 AM
My class has been talking a lot about stuff. Haha! like at 12:34 pm at 56 seconds 07/08/09. The numbers are 123456789. And badminton is fun. Stuff. LUNCH TOMORROW! REBBY IS COOKING! JAREB IS COOKING! Oh god. It's to die for! PASTA! HERE I COME! Haha, tomorrow is a half day, so I'll be going over to find her! But I'm not sure what time her classes end. But PASTA!!! Been doing a lot of projects. I'm so tired. But oh well... Back to talking to Tiffany, Joyce and Cloe for now! <3 Even though I haven been of high sprits these days, The people around me have made my day, Even though you don't notice. You do. Thanks Danna. Kim. Meow. Wan. Violet. Tiffany. Joyce. Cloe. I promise to go clubbing with you three some time soon alright, Tiffany, Joyce and Cloe? Very soon. When maybe all my end-term papers end. Or sooner. Love you.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 7:58 AM.
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Sunday, August 2, 2009 at 6:16 AM
You tell me these things, what am I to do? "You will lose out." "I want more from you." "You can't do it." "Perfect poise." "I want you to not lose out." "Triple the work." "There must be a mistake how I brought you up" "I should not have been to lenient." "The medication is to help you."
"You good for nothing." "You are not given enough homework." "You need to put triple the work then what others put in." "Why do you have so many scars?!" I hate how things are so perfect. So damned flawless. Why. Why does some things so freaking perfect? I can't stand it. I can't. It was not what I wanted to hear from you both. A mistake? I'm a mistake? Why does so much people expect so much from me? It's like walking on a very fine line and not being able to do it but there's not walking back, seeing the other family members doing it with such perfection. And then I can't and get reprimanded for it. I'm so sorry, my medical bills, all my medicine. All of it. Must have caused you both your savings. I don't expect much from you both, knowing I am down with this. I don't expect more. I swear I don't. I'm not jealous at any one. I don't want things others want. Maybe I don't mind not having both your attention at all. I don't. Because I know I'm a burden. I've always burden others. I'm sorry I can't attain anything. I should have berated myself worse then what I used to. I hate it. How things are so perfect. So damned flawless... I'm a burden. I don't want to burden others... It doesn't matter anymore. I tried. Maybe... Just not hard enough. I've not done enough. It's not enough.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 6:16 AM.
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