Sorry... I had to cut short on the post my parents wanted to keep the computer... and now it's happening again... this time because of my stupid sister... it goes like this
" Your sister needs to use the computer now... get off it"
" I Doing my typing... Let her use yours..."
" It's too troublesome to keep transferring the Document"
"Never mind I will do it..."
" Just what are you doing!"
" Blogging..." ( I wanted to scream and say I am depress and you don't even bother...)
"So?"
" Its good to blog bout what you are thinking..."
" So?"
" Why don't you let her use your computer? After all you are using it for fun..."
" But what you are doing is useless typing!" (that got me really mad...)
That's the end I don't wanna say anymore...
I really regretted doing something...
Maybe if I never said things would be alright
I mean it was all so obvious that you are important to me
Just hold on to me don't let me go
I beg you
yet fighting off the urge to disappear
yeah if I disappear I won't get hurt anymore...
I have a very fragile heart...
plus always putting on my usual calmness won't help my heart
Is not that I am in need of being cared...
I just need that kind of special attention...
when I am always there at the counsellor office...
I never told much about me
yes I told her alot
but its not even half...
I been always keeping to myself
I can't change that...
I just help my human to clear things up with her stead
Still with my usual pure calmness
even though I was talking to him
I was thinking about things again...
My problems...
My fears...
My thoughts...
My troubles...
My worries...
My Gan Family... I don't want to hurt them
My friends...
My teachers...
all these...
hidden in my expression of calmness or lost in thoughts
I don't want these to happen...
not to them please
direct it to me...
" Your sister needs to use the computer now... get off it"
" I Doing my typing... Let her use yours..."
" It's too troublesome to keep transferring the Document"
"Never mind I will do it..."
" Just what are you doing!"
" Blogging..." ( I wanted to scream and say I am depress and you don't even bother...)
"So?"
" Its good to blog bout what you are thinking..."
" So?"
" Why don't you let her use your computer? After all you are using it for fun..."
" But what you are doing is useless typing!" (that got me really mad...)
That's the end I don't wanna say anymore...
I really regretted doing something...
Maybe if I never said things would be alright
I mean it was all so obvious that you are important to me
Just hold on to me don't let me go
I beg you
yet fighting off the urge to disappear
yeah if I disappear I won't get hurt anymore...
I have a very fragile heart...
plus always putting on my usual calmness won't help my heart
Is not that I am in need of being cared...
I just need that kind of special attention...
when I am always there at the counsellor office...
I never told much about me
yes I told her alot
but its not even half...
I been always keeping to myself
I can't change that...
I just help my human to clear things up with her stead
Still with my usual pure calmness
even though I was talking to him
I was thinking about things again...
My problems...
My fears...
My thoughts...
My troubles...
My worries...
My Gan Family... I don't want to hurt them
My friends...
My teachers...
all these...
hidden in my expression of calmness or lost in thoughts
I don't want these to happen...
not to them please
direct it to me...
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 7:01 AM.
