I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 5:34 AM.
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008 at 5:34 AM
It hurts to know... Really... Good news I'm not Hurting ANYMORE! REALLY! but the other side of the story is... Instead I'm Dying... Slowly but dying... Like a dying withering rose... One day I'll just disappear... Really... I'm trying my best to advoid the thoughts in my head that would cause me harm... I should thank god that I can still laugh and actually control myself... I really want to burst out crying in the crowd... maybe some people might take pity on me... I don't know... All I know is that I want you happy... Don't look back if you feel that I'm slowly disappearing... I trying my best to stop liking you... I'll disappear slowly and by the time you look back... I'll seem to you like I had never exsisted before... I'm willing to do that so I won't stress you... I know you hate being under pressure... Slowly I'll be like someone in a old historian book... Don't worry... No self harm on myself is done... Don't worry... I harm myself mentally... I'll do whatever you want... It's going to hurt me... Don't worry... I'll be okay... I'll still be waiting for you... My smiles are not the same anymore... do you notice?... I had mood swing regulary... It's okay as long as you are happy... I'll be waiting... No matter how many people ask me... or how long I'll wait...
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 5:34 AM.
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