I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 5:45 AM.
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Thursday, January 8, 2009 at 5:45 AM
It ought to be just me... I wonder why... Some time I try to shake myself awake... Then I had a nightmare... I said it's a nightmare because it will never come true no matter how many times I dream about it and how perfect the dreams seems to be... Soon the china students are coming... Well he told me he will come... So yeah... I want more chains!!!! Like the one Gemini bought for me... Chains... Yeah... No matter how hard I dream... Dread... I want to skip school... I can't... When is the first Peer Support Board meeting?! They said it would be soon... Well okay... I'm easily bored out these days which will lead me back to thinking about my stuff... I keep opening his blog... Why?!... I can't seem to stop myself... I missed last year... I can't stop thinking... About him... And him... Good grieve... Let me have a break it's wearing me out... I have to get back to school on Saturday... Badminton orientation and shen yang training... From nine to twelve and training from twelve to late afternoon... People has their own preferences I guess... For example... It's always people who supports the good side... But try to turn at another angle and see the angle the bad side... Maybe you will understand... Yeah... Try to be in the shoes of both sides... Life is not fair... Because if it is... Tigers can eat rabbits and rabbits can eat tigers... By then pigs will fly and ants would never be small again... By then if all these happens then maybe I'll have more confidence... Yeah by then... Chains... I want chains... I love chains hehe... Well badminton seems to really tire me out this days... Is it my stamina, my lungs or me getting really restless... I should get myself chains hehe just like those Gemini got for me at 77th street... I want the one that can connect to the collars not the big pin hehe... And soon I need to set a date to meet up with a company... And social work at the hospitals... Back to the usual timetables then... I just hope that my restlessness would not affect any thing... You know what?... I'm starting to get jelous... For no rhyme or reason... I'm getting jelous just that I don't say it... I just live with it... Yeah... I don't know why... Maybe mind is not stable enough... I need a break... Just us... Yeah... It can be anyone... We can stay at a quiet place for awhile... Rest well we can... Just us I promise... Which I guess would never really come true... I'm tired... I keep blogging because... Nothing... And came on to see if you are there... If not I would not he bothered...
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 5:45 AM.
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