I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 2:40 AM.
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Saturday, January 10, 2009 at 2:40 AM
It's all about suppressing right? Well I'm doing it now... Don't know if this will work but yup... Suppressing so that no one would ever yet hurt again... Not withdrawing but waiting at the end of the line... Suppressing... It's all about it... Hiding... And forced smiles... One moment something can change it all... A single snap and outbreaks will happen... I don't want that to happen so I'm suppressing it... What's more I don't want to pressure others... If you have the advantage go on and take it... Well I have no advantage or anything so I can't do anything then wait... Yeah I know it's more or less on the verge of withdrawing so I know what you will think but yeah... Today I got to admit... I was day dreaming... Sorry... Seeing how much he is important to them... I have nothing more to say... What can I say? Throw a temper and tell them he is as important as me? They were practically protective of him... It's good to know that... What else is there to even say... Having to see them caring so much... And they are not afraid to show it... Well on the other hand me just smiles and remain quiet... What else can I do? All I really want is someone who would I don't know... Allow me to have a rest?... No... Maybe not that... All I want now is that all of them would be happy so does he... I don't need to he happy really... I've gotten used to it... I just want them to be happy... Really seeing them happy would be enough although I know myself fairly enough but yeah... Greediness... Want him all for myself? I don't think I'll be able to do that... There would be no way I would do that... Resist... Would be the solution... I must be the worlds most naive person... Yeah... How I wish I could be more pratical... Like other girls... Yeah... They are lucky to be like this... Some are being loved and loving at the same time... That's nice... Yup... I heard it's nice... I can't say anything about it cause I never really been loved... When it comes to family and stuff but that's not the point... It kind of hurts... Yes it does... I'm doing the purely opposite... Instead of healing... I'm making it worse... Might as well leave a mark... I'm doing it to allow others to be happy... It's the least I can do for those unlucky ones... Yeah even though how many marks it leaves I actually don't mind... Just stay happy... Please?...I know you guys and you will find it someday... You just have to be patient... And if you already did... A word of advice... Just be yourself... Don't be afraid to show it... Because if both really loves each other they would accept everything about them the bad or good and accept it whole...
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 2:40 AM.
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