I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 4:16 AM.
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Sunday, March 15, 2009 at 4:16 AM
Lately... I've been getting a strange feeling... I don't know... Maybe it's coming from you... Yeah I think it's coming from you... Eating used to be something most people would find meaning in life... Sadly I never once considered eating to be important... And so would skip the meals... Even so I'm losing my appetite... I would eat alittle but now I lose my appetite easily... And won't feel like eating at all... Even though I ate little for breakfast and nothing for lunch... And when the sun finally sets I still would not have the appetite to eat... Okay everything seems to pass by very quickly... My hands feel numb... Want to know why?.... I just did something I was suppose to do 3 months back... I finally did it... And went offline... I was too afraid to get an answer... Like last time... The past haunts me... Now the present and past wont leave me alone... Why won't it leave me alone?! I can't take this anymore... I can't... Seeing people happy... Makes it feel so unfair... I really can't take it... I'm a disappointment am I not?.... I always were.... I'm sorry... I'm really sorry... Just as I thought I could put the past down... I'm losing again... To another thing that I'm running away... Someone please... Help me... I want to go back... To where I was suppose to be... Back alongside with familiar faces... No more of this... To where I belong... And where ever I go I would be happy... Swimming now would seem a good... A 8pm swim at night... Where I can hide from everything.... And my parents... All at once... Breaking... They are going over board now... And I just sit there... And think... "Go on... Tell me off... Scold me... Do that... I won't do a thing... Scold me all you want"
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 4:16 AM.
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