"I don't know big brother, I don't..."
Kinda saddening when you don't have any idea how to answer a question your brother is asking you. Especially when he's one of the two, who actually has hard to hard talks with you. Yeah. And then what you say speaks the truth. Because you have no idea what you are feeling now. Grown more quieter, and you just can't bother about your feelings. Because they were never important in the first place. Korean drama must be more important then me, eh? Hahahas. I guess. Parents were screaming at me yesterday. Haha. More of my momma, my papa was okay with it. Because I spent quite a sum of money. Well, I'm sorry. Haha. But the clothes I got were awesome. Haha. Yeah. I'm locking myself indoors these days. I even wanted to throw all my devices out. Haha!!! Could not be bothered anymore. Kim thinks that it's not that simple. She keeps telling me, that what ever we do always has a reason. Haha. A friend thinks I'm smiling for the sake of others. And a family friend thinks that I need some time off. Haha. People! I'm fine! God. And I am made to drink some thing, clear away all the dead blood cells. It's gotta hurt. Haha. Big brother told me that one day, when he becomes independent. He will get me out of the family which I'm currently living under the same roof with. The only person who showered me with lots and lots of family love. And I trust him. I'll be waiting. Haha. Currently dying if boredom. I'm food less again. Haha. Thank god I ate this afternoon, due to Kim, who forced me to eat. And I'm currently very grateful for that. There were lots of conflicts today. I'm fine, don't worry. Haha. Hey... I still have one macaroon from yesterday! Haha. I can eat that. Haha. I've realized that I had not been taking photos of myself recently, no? Don't worry. I will, soon. Maybe at Kim's party, and definately at the wedding. And I wish you a safe flight back, Kea. Je T'aime.
We shall end this,
at where it started in the first place,
End it where it all started out.
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 4:11 AM.