I need to really pay attention to my surroundings more, I don't think I will be lucky the next time. Went to the doctors today. My momma is having some operation soon. My asthma attacks are being a little too frequent... I was trying to not use my inhaler. But gave up after 5 minutes of acute pain. The days are coming a little too fast and I'm still trying to figure out stuffs.

I miss the time she was here. I miss it so badly. No one to talk to in dreadful school classes. I still remember how often she and I message during school. Her school always start later then mine. And we always message till after I ended my school. I miss it. I miss how she and I used to talk on the phone. I miss all those messages from her, I miss the way I used to tell her everything. Big or small, she would still listen. I miss the way she used to be like a big sister to me. I miss her. I miss her bad. I still remember, her trip to New York, was so dreadful without her. 4 days and my life became so dull. But now, I miss her, but she won't come back just not yet, I miss how much we used to talk, but then. I can't. I must have brought a lot of pain to her. That's why these days I don't ask about her. I don't dare to ask how is she. But I miss her. I miss my best friend. She needs time. I'll stay far away just enough to be there for her if she need me.

I miss them too. I miss those who chose to stay in Switzerland. I miss Stacy, Mikey and Cloe. More of Stacy and Mikey. Because I don't talk to Cloe much. But I miss them too.

Congrats to my other best friend in getting engaged to my senior. Last long! Engagement is no small thing! I wanna attend your wedding!!! Hahah. Sempai come back soon!!! I wanna receieve more letters from you.


Your birthday is just around the corner. And I have no idea what to do. I want you here. But I don't know how to even tell you. I think, I'll try something else. Even though I want you here bad. So badly. I love you.

Joyce and Stacy are waiting for me!!! I think I'll stop here. I love everyone I mentioned in this post. Joyce too. Hahah.

Decided to forget everything about being sad. Looking forward to the future with you and my best friends. And spending my time on more useful things like social work. Looks like I'm going back to my social work life. Going to be BUSY! Hahah social work in either the hospital or a day-care centre. Back to work! Haha. I think I'll go ask of they need help in the day-care centre near my house. Hahah.

After all these years my parents kept my Violin. They finally agreed to have me take it up again. After all these years of pleading them to let me continue playing. They finally told me where they kept it. If only I get to see and play it soon, again.

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