I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 1:45 AM.
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008 at 1:45 AM
It just cant get any worse can it? I vomited in class today and all eyes was on me and two of the badminton girls had to help me to the wash room, and i had to freeze to death in the sick bay... cause my parents wanted to save time, oil and money so they decided to pick me up when they pick my sister from piano classes its just not fair i mean other parents would rush to the school to pick their children up wont they but i was almost half dead when mine pick me up i was freezing cold... the nice lady did lend me her jacket... then I was left all alone and my parents went out for lunch and so i was quite hungry bit did not bother to find what to eat and after that i slept all the way to 5. During the period I recalled and incident where I was sent to the hospital because i not sure why... then i had lot of blood transfusion the life then is a part of my memories that is restricted for anyone to know unless... its really my good friends... as i was saying... that time i never really got to see my parents visiting me its always the nurses fussing over me and my relatives usually my parents never did come through the door... because I was placed in the ward where the whole room was mine i always look among the clouds... the nurses that my parents paid to attend to me always bring me around on the wheel chair with the bag and needle still attach to me it was quite a difficulty going about sometimes i wonder why i see so many people around me laughing and I am always the odd one out. The nurses change the bag of either water or blood when needed to and sometimes i usually stare at the bag watching as the water drops slowly, as i was in the ward that only has one person I had no one to talk to. Some may think wow first class ward or something but life in there was terrible I had to stay there for almost a month and it was no difference wether I am at home or not cause i still don't get to see my parents... the only thing is that I suffer more in there because the changing and putting in of the needle in my hand was not only an ants bite but was much more... i still remember that i was being rushed in to the hospital in the ambulance and onto the bed being pushed into the lift... and I passed out later and find myself facing the nurse who ask me how I was feeling... I had felled many times and when i am always about to give up someone finally pull me up there was quite alot of times i wanted to end all the pain but always i being rescued... it seems that i am not fated to die so early yet... but why i never wanted to be here in the first place... I always thought people who are born on earth are all needed but why am i not needed and why is my life like this must as well just put a stop to all of this pain right?
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 1:45 AM.
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