I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 12:57 AM.
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Sunday, January 4, 2009 at 12:57 AM
It seems so still and clear now... Its' like looking for a needle in a sea... Give up?... maybe... slowly... I don't know... Change of plans?... Run away and avoid all of them and also close and even love ones?... Hm... Just yesterday... Someone talk some sense into me... Now?... I just trying to run away again... What's wrong with me... Just disappear and appeaar a few years later down the road?... Get a plane go all the way to somewhere far in the moutains?... Save myself and hurt them?... Selfless... Just today... At 2 am... Someone gave me an advice... When ever I give him advice he takes in to deep consideration and then most of the time listen and follow... I took in to consideration too... Was going to follow but then... I just felt like giving up... All of a sudden... Damn it... I'm so useless... I dont want to do anything wrong... I never want to hurt anyone... But it seems that during my whole entire life I've been causing the people around me to hurt... alot... and I truly try to mend it... Yeah Some worked... Some failed worse then before... Causing more pain... It's too scary to see them hurt again and again... Countless of people... It's really enough... really... I don't want to see anyone else getting hurt anymore from whatever they are hurting from... Some times i just watch them far away and hope that they will be fine... No matter how much anger they show towards me I just want to stay by their side until they are better... About mine?... Yeah?... I don't know... Yeah even if I did run off I still have to face it... Give me some time... What if giving myself is a mistake too... I know... Music... Maybe... Nevermind...
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 12:57 AM.
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