I am happy...
because I can't... Without you"
Torture...
it hurts... Really I highly doubt that I... I know people who given up on life... I know others that threaten to kill themself... Some that never give up... And others that gave up half way... One's biggest enemy is themselves, we have more power to do the things that we want to do... Just that we don't know and we need to overcome ourselves to be able to control it... Mental skills is important... If you scold yourself in losing a point in badminton then you will never make it... same goes to life... If you are scared dont scold yourself... Calm yourself and tell yourself you can do it... Do anyone watch tennis? Very less tennis players when they lose a point would pluck their strings to make it seem like they are adjusting it but actually they are transfering their anger in to their rackets and when they are ready they forget all their anger and their mind would be clear and focus... No more negative feelings toward themselves and instead they tell themselves postive things... I'm also trying my best to overcome this barrier... Yeah... I heard you both are extending your trip... That's nice... Yup it is... Breaking piece by piece hearing about you... I don't know why... It stings like needles... Some even ask that question... It hurts to smile... Some may look real but I know it's not... Only 2% of my smiles are true... I never use to smile before so you can see how my life used to be... Colourless... I know i'm greedy... Can't help it... I lack parental love... from my past till now... I had always lack this... and others too... but thats not really important is it?... When teachers ask about my family... I keep quiet... or i would say... okay... I dread those papers about your parents information... How much time do they spend with you... Which one are you closer to?... Do they love you and stuff... I never answered those... Leaving blanks... I know a few others worse then me and that somewhere in the world there is always someone worse... And have fun decoding...
Then anyone else... You both are worth loving..."
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 1:34 AM.
