I made about 500 of those... My hands hurt... yes but i still cant believe i was smiling... But behind the smile I was thinking about not only you but hurting for another person... Yes I was hurting all right... Manage to put that smile on... And you know what?... I think I need to make more then a thousand... It's like 2/5 of the huge glass bottle... I dont care... I enjoy doing it for you... In every one before i fold... I wrote something in it... Something... Not for you to love me but something else... There would be three different wishes... One which would contain like ALMOST all of it... And a few of those containing two other wishes... I needed more then what I expected... I freak when I realised there was still ALOT of space... I spend like an hour arranging it... And yes you... No matter how much your words are tying to tell me you forgotten about me (which I don't know because you were always smiling... Really trying to cheer me up alot)... I still .... I don't know... Your words might be daggers... Yup daggers that would slowly sink in and make me fall on my knees when I know you might be going insane... I love you... But I don't know really... I want to love you too... My heart's too small... I'm backing away... But I too need you...It was meant to be like this right?... Just like her... I'll see if i'm free to buy more and other valentines present...
"Just like who?"
"Just like Isbella Swan... She was meant"
"to have the wooden wolf totem and"
" ... The perfect crystal bauble heart ...
"Hanging on the bracelet on her wrist , exactly on the opposites on the chain..."
"I really yearn for you... and you to love me"
"I don't know what to do... I need you.. The both of you."
"I need the both of you... When I was writing the wishes for him..."
"I so badly wanted to change it to I love you... I'm selfish... I'm sorry..."
"I'm in a locked room hiding in one corner..."
"With guilt and regret knocking on my door"
"I really need you both... But I'm silencing myself..."
"Trying to be happy... Hoping I'll get retribution soon...."
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 2:42 AM.