When what you never ever dream of ever happening, happens... When what you expected not to fall, fall... When what you thought that you would not lose that much, actually lose way more then what you thought... When time time comes, would you still continue believing? Would you choose to still believe when in hope when the time comes? More or less it's more like I'm being played around with like a toy... Like giving a hungry child bread, and the child takes it... Before the child eats it... You snatch it back... Some random person pops up and hurt your friend... What can you do? A friend who might be going to another country, what can you do about it? Someone you hope to be happy, and have no idea how the person is, what can you do? Being stucked with no Internet and quite alone, what can you do? By then one by one everything falls apart... Would one choose to still believe in hope and miracles?...
You were there as a passer-by/ as a friend to your friend in need... You see, an outsider has a thinking of it's own... And it's not one of your friends in it... It's two of them and some guy you seriously hate... More or less... A girl and two other people... You side with the girl who is your friend... Like any other friend would... But unknowingly that you, the outsider actually got into something like this, something like what your friend has gotten into in... What will you do about it? Runaway or just be ruthless? Or you can be kind... Will you have the mind of thoughts in your head when you are still the outsider then? And deal it with the mind when you were an outsider with this problem that someone or you yourself gotten into? Be fair
When thinking of someone hurts, and not thinking of them hurts too... Would you still think? Or not to think? When worrying actually pulls you down and not worrying makes you feel guilty... Would you worry? Or not to worry? When a choice of starting a new life at somewhere else is given to you it's very tempting, but to do that actually means to put down everything you have now.... What will you choose? If dream's do come true would you want it to come true even when it's a bad dream? When you want to runaway but you can't because in the end you would get back to the same neighbourhood, pass the same gates, pass by the same environment and through the same door, what's the point of even running away? If loving someone means not intruding into their life's by not having to get frustrated and even to the point hurt them... Why let the person know your feelings in the first place? I'd rather keep it to myself...
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I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 4:05 AM.
