"she's not good..."
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 9:37 PM.
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Saturday, April 18, 2009 at 9:37 PM
Everyone seem so... I don't know... I hear that it's bad... But the adults don't seem to be worried... I asked my cousin this... "How... is she?" He took 5 minutes to reply it... It felt strained and trying to make it seem light so we won't have to really think about it "Not good...but not bad either" I asked about his mom, he told me she's really sad... I'm going to see her... After my paper's... on the day I finish them... He told me "sure"... Instead of enjoying after my paper's I'm gonna rush over to see her... I still don't know what to react to this... I decided to sent bouquets of flower's soon... And bring one when I see her, but I don't know where to find one... A flower shop... I don't even know what flower's she like and stuff... The atmosphere is depressing... My parent's are speaking in Cantonese and Hokkian when they are trying to hide thing's from me... But they don't know that I raftly understand it... My cousin's say that she's in a bad critical situation... So does everyone I ask "She's in a bad situation"... Everyone says it... I know she's bad... My cousin's were like telling me "She still continued to work even though we tell her not to" ... I know... I tried to also... Every time I go to see her she personally cook's for me... coming home from work... being tired... and still able to cook... And the best part is... I rarely visit her... I'm an idiot... The last time I saw her was during the New Year's Banquet... about two or one month ago... My cousin told me "I still seriously don't believe that this old lady was the one I saw last Sunday night". He got called out of school, I think... Everyone says she's bad... I know... She's in the Intensive Care Unit... Any stupid person would know that it's bad... She's in a critical moment... Any brainless person would know that it's bad... She's in a bad condition... Any blind person can imagine those bandages... an tubes, machines and stuff connected to her... I feel like running away from school... Far away to somewhere... I don't know... I can't seem to have my emotions in a straight order... I have mixed feeling's... Yeah... All at once... I don't know... I seriously don't know... All I know it's to be put up with my school teacher who picks on people like me... My friend's... Force a smile... Study... and catch up with thing's... The fake smile and being hyper is more important... so my friend's and loved one's will feel at ease... I don't want them to be worried and be pulled down by me when they already have thing's to worry about... Especially a few... "she's not good..."
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 9:37 PM.
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