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Thursday, April 23, 2009 at 6:28 AM
This week has been horrible... You know while waiting for my parent's to pick me up at 7.30p.m. I was rocking on the bench... Crying... I don't know... My friend's told me to cry it all out... Somehow I can't... I broke off after four day's... Four day's of keeping my feelings... I cried... Twice today... The first one was with Deborah... She was talking to me... Telling me it was alright... She took 15 minutes talking to me... Yi ting was patting my back... And when Danna saw... She looked at me... And I understood she wanted to talk to me in private for awhile... So I stood up... She started telling me that she's at a better place and it was going to be alright... Everyone says so... But I just can't think that it's alright... Today was horrible... I don't really want to think about it... I received Big brother's letter... He wants me to be frank with him about my problems... I guess... He has the right to know... He's my brother... Kea too... Yeah... My seniors from SJS are really nice... They have been writing letters to me... Everyone has been really kind to me... Don't worry... I won't hide things from you all anymore... ... I received Hisagi's Sempai's letter yesterday... And today's Big brother's and Yayoi Sempai... Soon I'll be writing to Kea... Yeah... I didn't attend her funeral... Cremation... Even though she was still here I was never there... I found out I don't have a picture... I don't know where her ashes are... I have order's to obey... Studies to cope... Time to split with all my close ones... Kea, Danna, Gemini, Big brother, Tiffany... ... Rain: I'll make the nicest heart for you... Kea: I don't care. I know I have your heart. Tonight by FM Static (Rain) Make you smile by Plus 44 (Kea) "Cry all as I might... It's not time yet... All I can do is bite my lip and wish for the best... Thank you all for being there for me..."
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 6:28 AM.
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