Reopening of old wounds.
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 8:33 AM.
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Wednesday, May 27, 2009 at 8:33 AM
I'm sorry... I can't stay happy now... Not yet... When everything have to get screwed up again... This is worse then before... And I'm breaking apart, as usual. Nothing unusual. It's becoming more and more often... "Spill" this word... Made me say everything I tried to hide. I made my plans, if something were to happen. All I had to do was carry them out... Piece by piece I place my observations. Piece by piece I tried to mend my heart. Piece by piece I tried to put everything together. Make it right. What should I do now? Tell me. Someone please? "You know what? Just stay in me, sadness. Just stay." I wanted to say this. What now? Tell me. I made plans. Half of it I just can't carry out... It's happening again. Why. What went wrong again? Tell me? It's so ironic, it hurts. It hurts. I don't dare say another word because I don't know what to say. I should have. But I really don't know. Should I just follow my parents wishes. I'm not sure. Scars are meant to be left at wounded areas... Are these even worthy wounds? I don't care. As long as they leave a scar I don't care at all... I won't. Contemplating suicide does not tempt me yet... I'll just distance myself again, I guess. It all happened too sudden. And I'm starting to give up on life again. Should I just drown somewhere?... I'm hopeless... What is it that I'm suppose to do now? I don't know. Everyone is leaving. And then I'm here again. Maybe, I should just go away. Everything I have been looking forward to... Has disappear. Yeah. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't. Someone, shoot me. I'm begging you. Reopening of old wounds.
To You I'd Be Always Faithful.♥ 8:33 AM.
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