Its not the wedding I'm hosting that is eating me up,
Its not the fact that I'm being picked on that is eating me,
Its not the problems that I'm facing that is eating me up,
Its the fact,
That I had hurt you,
the fact that I had not been able to talk to you for a very long while,
the fact that I want to hear your voice again,
the fact that I want you by my side,
the fact that I want to have more of you,
the fact that I'm afraid once would not be enough,
that is eating me up from the inside.
It feels to me that the pain of being eaten up
is more then the other pains I'm feeling.
I want you.
Big brother is leaving for Korea next week. As promised, I would have another long hard to hard talk with him, when he comes back from Korea. Yeah. I've been spacing a lot. Haha. Sigh. I asked my brother if my feelings were that important, and he said that even if it does not mean anything to me, it meant the whole world to him. Everyone is trying I make my happy. I should be. Right? I mean I have too... Because they have been trying a lot to cheer me up. I should be happy... I have to... If not it won't be fair to them... Yeah. I should.
I Don't Want Just Anyone's Hug.♥ 6:33 AM.
